For each and all a chrome disguise
Prompts for action, Forced reaction
Embody promise in a sheen so pure
Hurt, the measure of blind ambition
A testament to your singular disease
Against all wisdom you heed no warning
Your desires giving you away

If I could change your mind
I wouldn't save you from the path you wander
In desperation dreams, any soul can set you free
And I still hear you scream
In every breath, In every single motion
Burning innocence, the fire to set you free

Your actions turn conquest to dust
In portents of fate, you foolishly place trust
Sense fear in your broken breathing
Resort to shadows till your body expires
All creation has a promise of heaven
And still you travel the road to hell
I'm saying nothing for the good of myself
But I'm still talking and you're not listening

If I could change your mind
I wouldn't save you from the path you wander
In desperation dreams, any soul can set you free
And I still hear you scream
In every breath, In every single motion
Burning innocence, the fire to set you free

As night descends upon the city
The streets are cold, the lights go down
And in the stories of the people
A million faces, a million lies
They'll never say they feel what you feel
That they can see the world you see
And in thier faces, thier expressions
A million faces, A million lies.



Alrighty everyone.
Lets see what I've been up to.

Tina had her abortion. I went farther and farther into depression up to the day it happened, then was miserable for about a week. It doesn't take much to make me guilty. On the other hand, I seriously hope the bitch fucked up her equipment.

AAAAANYhowww.....

I finally beat Armored Core 4. And are completely stumped by the ending. Which means I have to buy 4Answer in order to figure out whats up.

Started playing magic again. Running a black Zombies deck....
Do you like zombies?
Yeah we like zombies!
Do you like dead folks?
Yeah we like dead folks!
Do you like corpses?
Yeah we like corpses!
Doot doo doo doot!
Can't wait to get a headshot!


Heh..

So, my scanner is being perpetually fucktarded. As such, it will be a while before I can post any new art. However I have a short literary piece. The Pandemic teaser will be up shortly. I hope it ends up as popular as Skyscraper Skeletons.

Maybe moreso.

Gettin employments is a bitch.

I was laid up with a staph infection for the past week. For those that haven't heard. I was miserable. And it was nasty. I wound up getting prescribed 900mg tabs of Lorotab. I really didn't particulary care ^^.

so anyways people, I'm going to head out.
Once again, apologies for not looking at deviations. I had 92 deviations. And I'm lazy. You do the math. Like I've stated before. Anything perticualary interesting I should see, just let me know.

Remember, I love you all ^^

And holding fast to truth
(I don't want to lose what I had as a boy.)
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat.
(As common as a cold day in LA.)
Sometimes when I'm alone, I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts...
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive.
Love sings,
When it transcends the bad things.
Have a heart and try me,
'cause without love I won't survive.

I'm fettered and abused,
I stand naked and accused
(Should I surface this one man submarine?)
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth!
(I'll never lose what I had as a boy.)
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts...
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive.
Love sings,
When it transcends the bad things.
Have a heart and try me,
'cause without love I won't survive


Alrighty then...

So, its been quite a while since I posted, leaving quite alot of time to cover. Lets begin with the worst shall we?

Tonight Tina called me. She's eight weeks pregnant. It's mine. She wants to get an abortion. I'm going to help pay for it. In all honesty, I think its pretty shitty that this is the first time in about four weeks that she's called me. We were supposed to be friends after we broke up. Apparently thats in the shitter. However, the irony of the fact that shes preggo from our break up sex isn't lost on me. Fuck it.

Anyhow....

I'm redoing Phlegm... in fact, it isn't named phlegm anymore. I'm toying around with a more serious story. Not sure of many details at the time, so I apologize. I'll have the concept pics up as soon as I do 'em. My muse has been kind of AWOL lately. So I'm dry on ideas.

Still working on my story. The plot is progressing nicely. I'll prolly start writing the first draft withing the next few weeks. I hope you all enjoy it.

I have a job waiting for me. It will be a few weeks before I can get it though. I has to get clean from mah illegal drug usage, so I gotsta work it all out of my system. Its tree surgery. $7 an hour, ten hour shifts in the ricockulous heat of Oklahoma summers, but a jobs a job.

Apparently the college has had me 'unoffically withdrawn'. Basically the colleges way of saying 'too soon, try again later'. So now I have $4900 hanging over my head. They haven't said anything about it, but i know its only a matter of time.

Has been raping me alot lately, or at least wanting to. She's a horny neko-neko X3. I loves you neko-chan!

On a related note, I'm kinda enjoying being single. Not being tied down. Not being a stray. I feel kinda free.

I've also been plagued by odd dreams and memories lately. Thoughts that aren't mine. Its disturbing.

-sigh- I'm feeling kind of lost too. Like I have no clue where I'm going. Even though I know exactly where I've been, It doesn't help. Letting all of my thoughts culminate into a jumble that eventually dissolves into an empty dystopian nothingness. I don't know how to express these thoughts, or explain them to anyone. So they keep showing up, only to disappear again. I'm trying to find myself, and Its not going well.

Anyhow. I apologize for not reading any of your journals or notes. But there were so fucking many of them, I didn't want to bother with it. Mostly because I'm lazy. If you want me to see a new piece, or read a journal, just let me know. I'll get to it at my earliest opportunity.

Remember, I love you all.

P.S. Jhonny Cash wrote 'Hurt', not Trent Resner as the popular consensus believes. If you think that, you fail.

So, bunch of info since its been forever since I've updated.

Worst news: Tina permenantly called it off with me. She misses hanging out with me, but nothing about the relationship. She can't return any emotion I express, so I'm letting her go.

In related news, I'm single.

So, Project Pandemic isn't related to Project Sigma anymore. And I'm considering putting Project Marathon on hold to work on PHLEGM. I've been working on it for 4 years. I figure I might as well get it going.

I'm rewriting the character bios, and will post them asap.

Anyhow, possibly getting a job at Dow Tile on the other side of town. $12 an hour for a 12 hour shift. And three and a half days on an three and a half days off.

So.. Yeah.. Just thinking of saying fuck it to relationships. Caused me nothing but misery in the long run.

Anyhow, Ima sign off..

I love you all.

The red flag wavin' never meant the same,
the kids of tomorrow don't need today,
When they live in the sins of yesterday.

Well I've never seen us act like this,
our only hope is the minds of kids,
and they'll show us a thing or two.

Our only weapons are the guns of youth,
It's only time before they tighten the noose,
and then the hunt will be on for you.

the red flag wavin' never meant the same, NO
the red flag wavin' never meant the same

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain,
the red flag wavin' never meant the same,
the kids of tomorrow don't need today,
when they live in the sins of yesterday.

Like a smallest bee packs a sting,
Like a pawn checkmates a king,
we'll attack at the crack of dawn.

Build a ladder if there's a wall,
don't be afraid to slip and fall,
speak for yourself or they'll speak for you.

the red flag wavin never meant the same, NO
the red flag wavin never meant the same

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain,
the red flag wavin never meant the same,
the kids of tomorrow don't need today,
when they live in the sins of yesterday.


Like a fire
don't need water,
like a jury
needs a liar,
like a riot
don't need order,
like a mad man
needs a martyr.

We don't need them.

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain,
the red flag wavin' never meant the same,
the kids of tomorrow don't need today,
when they live in the sins of yesterday.


Hellooooooo Children!

I hope everyone is doing well.

I'm going to have to take 9 hours of classes over the summer. Because I was stupid and fucked around enough to screw up my grades for this semester. I'm going to pass Personal Health and College Strategies. meaning I have to take Algebra, Freshman Comp I, and Geography over the summer. Boys and girls, remember, just because you're in college doesn't meant you can fuck off. You'll regret it. I know I do.

In other news;

PHLEGM is suspended for several reasons;

1 - Project Sigma: A new literary piece (currently untitled) I'm working on, and have high hopes for. I haven't released many details as of late, But I can assure you it will be my best work yet.

2 - Project Marathon: Not literary, not art. Frankly, you won't know what the hell it is until I'm ready to announce it. However, for those interested, Within the next month and a half I will begin Alpha testing and working out the bugs in a so far smooth running system.

3 - Project Pandemic: Another literary piece that I will be putting together as I work on Project Sigma. Between each installment of Sigma, I will be posting a piece of Pandemic. Yes, it does relate to Sigma, but I wouldn't want to give away any spoilers now would I?

Now, on to other things.

Apparently theres a new movie coming out.
G.I. Joe: Rise of Cobra. Sorry folks, but I saw the trailer of it for the first time tonight and shit a brick. Personally, I love G.I. Joe, so I'm ecstatic.

Tina and I celebrated her 22nd birthday, as well as our two months, last Saturday ^^. It was fun.

I am currently working on finding employments over the summer. Wish me luck, because my luck with employers has always been less than satisfactory.

Anyhow, I have health homework I need to catch up on, so I'm signing off.

Remember, I love you all.

Of this impressive mess I've made
If you take a look now you will find
I have thrown away my vice
Done away with paradise
See whats going on inside my mind
Please let me out
Please let me out
Please let me...

Branded like an animal
I can still feel them burning my mind
I do believe that you made your message clear
I think I am losing my mind
I think I am losing my mind
Deprivating, isolating all that I feel
Leaving me with images I know are not real
Are those words of condemnation that I hear
I think I am losing my mind
I think I am losing my...

Come inside now I implore
Do you think you can restore
The crucial pieces missing from my brain
What seems to be the matter dear
Why do you cry and shake with fear
I've only had the best dub me insane.
Please let me out
Please let me out
Please let me....

Branded like an animal
I can still feel them burning my mind
I do believe that you made your message clear
I think I am losing my mind
I think I am losing my mind
Deprivating, isolating all that I feel
Leaving me with images I know are not real
Are those words of condemnation that I hear
I think I am losing my mind
I think I am losing my mind

I Don't know how much I can take
The secret thoughts inside me wake
I've lost what was within me
Oh sweet insanity

Try again to find
The thing that was my mind
Behold the undersigned
Who said I've lost my mind



So, hows everyone been?
Good I hope.

So, I'm not going to be able to get withdrawn from my COMP I class, meaning I'll most likely fail that class >.<. Thank god for Academimic Forgiveness. I'm going to be taking several classes over the summer, which is A-ok with me.

Been working on 100%-ing Resident Evil 5 with my buddy Moses. We aren't racist, but you wouldn't know it from listening to us play that game.

Been working on a couple new pieces. One of them is a book I'm going to attempt to write, the rest have to do with PHLEGM and a couple of requests.

And as for PHLEGM, I'm working on getting my hands on a copy of Photoshop. Once thats out of teh way, I'll make my best attempt to make PHLEGM a weekly, if not regular thing.

I should be getting a $900 change check from my FAFSA, and I'm going to have to figure out how to divide it. I still have to get my car, and fix my 360, as well as put a decent chunk aside for A-kon this year. Priorities. I doesn't has them.

Working on starting a band with Moses. Apparently he wants me to be the drummer, even though I have horrible rhythm. He'll be the Guitarist, Jynx will be the vocals, I'm drummer, Tina is back up vocals, and we need a Bassist.

Speaking of Tina, we's going to a barbecue her brother and Kat are holding this weekend. I have a feeling this could be fun.

I've also decided to do a 5555 kiriban for those interested. The winner will be granted any request they choose ^^

Anyhows, moses is bugging me to go kill n****r zombies.... (see what I mean?)
Ergo, I take my leave.

I love you all.